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Tuesday, February 9, 2010
06 Feb 2010
Bistro! Ahaha yea. Went to a Bistro near Tamp safra to celebrate Oswin's birthday. My basketball mate. I wish you a long life and may you always stay as happy as you are. Th place was really nice, i like! Pics in my phone lazy uplaod de. Ahaha. But yea, overall, I had a great time. Thank you guys, appreciate it loads. XD
07 Feb 2010
Kendarat! Ahaha after a tiring day from th bistro ytd, today I wasn't on my top form for work. WOke up and I had no mood for work alr. But oh well, work is work. ANd yea, th wedding was one of my relative's. Like wow. AHaha met my Grandma and a few aunts and uncs there. They were like shocked to see me working there. Ahaha great! ALright, but overall that day, Catastrophic. XD
i can't take it any longer,
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Yessa! I finally gathered up th courage to talk to her face-to-face. Woo! Ahaha. During ODAC time, saw her with Kai Ling at th canteen. Approached her and said Hi. It was quite awkward la as i very paisey siah, im in th wrong? Ok. Thn before I went off, asked her to smile, and she did but after that she said this : "Sial uh kao". -..- Ahahaha like wth! FIne, nvmind that. SO yea, Thank You Hamizah!
Alright that's one point. Second point, there's this sec one girl who really gets on my nerves siah. You can ask th Momos mans! They aren't of any help at all instead they kept on laughing at me. Bloody asssss. Ok here's hw the story goes, during morning assembly, my class was beside 1T1 classroom. Thn me and Haris both made friends with this one small boy, "Shahirul". Thn was quite ok after a few days thn one particular day, i forgot. I was at th canteen with th Momos thn suddenly I got a fullscap paper and you knw what was written in it? This : "Are you single?" Mygod, I was like who siah. Thn got to knw that's its this girl. Ok I don't wanna talk about her siah, please mans. Like ohmygod. Ask th Momos mans! Its eerie! Thn since then I had to force myself to like wave at her as she wanted to be friends? Dammit. Come on mans. Please.
Third thing, XD
Oh Siti Nasuha Bte Ramlee! She's a MAT. Ahaha. She calls me Minah so I called her Mat uh abe? Ahaha mepek uh, tkpela. Someone pointed and made me realise something today. Otw home frm sch just nw, met Shaik Iskandar and went home together. Thn we sat for awhile and chit-chatted awhile. Thn we started talking about girlfriends? He suddenly said : "Tap prompan kao setia uh pat kao". And that made me realise a whole lot. How can i betray her Love just like that. She doesn't deserve it. So yea, im blogging about this publicly. Its what I did wrong and yes, I admit it. I just don't appreciate what's right in front of me. But now, I guess imma have to change. I love her a whole lot. Bby, I sincerely am, Sorry.
th paralyzing depression ...
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Confidence. Is all I ever needed to succeed. Yet I lack of it and I find it hard to have it in myself. Why do I always look down on myself? Or maybe I am as stupid. Damn it. Confusion. Lingers around me, day and night. I thought to myself? Will I be able to make everyone proud this year? Or will I just repeat my mistakes and disappoint them again? I'm doing my best. My very best. I am trying. God willing, I will make it this year.
Days went by, as fast as a galloping horse. I thought again, I miss Hamizah. But I guess hatred fills her heart. I thought again, I was wrong. I didn't realise my mistake until you pointed it out. Guess it must have hurt you a lot. Guess it must have been hard on you. Guess you were wrong about me being all nice and sincere. Guess you were disappointed. How's life? I wish I could say that directly to you. But you chose to Avoid. Maybe that's what you think is Best. I respect that. But I gotta make things right, without knowing how to. So I guess, I am an Asshole.
as sincere as I am Sorry, it wouldn't make a difference ...
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Today was Fine. Except for th part that my phone ain't working. Its like th buttons ain't functioning at all. Dammit. I can't even read a msg or even send one. Not even call. Suck siah. Guess imma be unavailable till i duno when. Gah, Shyt!
School's been good. Managed to cope with my studies. Same goes for Haris. He is just so funny at times. Alright guess there's nothing much to blog about for today. WIll update soon. And there's trainng tml. Rock Climbing. XD
kasih, engkaulah lagenda cintaku ...
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
School's been ok recently. Coping well with th class and stuff. There's Haris who's always there for me. But i guess i lost two of my other besties. Which is a sad thing ofcourse. I do stuff which affects ppl roughly yet i didnt realise it. Gah whatever, hope to severe all ties with them soon. I seriously have no intention of using them like what they claimed. Gah, Fuck it. Bleargh.
Rock CLimbing's been sucky. I didn't even manage to climb a route till th end without resting. I rested for like 4 times. My hands were super pumped. But i was super delighted with th Sec Ones today. Some showed true potential. I like. I can see tat they can really go far in Rock Climbing. All th way!
I WANNA GO TO KRABI!
Yes. I wanna go to Krabi for th upcoming rock climbing trip. I've never been to nay trip before so this is my last chance. Haven't ask Daddy yet. See how things goes. Guess imma save up my money mans! I wanna go go go. Damn it.
kental siah panjat Dan, tkya panajt sua! XD
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Yepp. This is a picture of th book I'm currently reading. Lemme tell you this, it is super nice! Ahaha. This is th first book that made me soo into it. I love it. You guys should check out other Tory Hayden's books. I'm sure you would love it. Gah, ahaha alright. Enough babbling.
Went to slack with Hamtam and Nasuha aft sch. Thn around 6PM, we were off home. Sent Nas off but then aft hearing th voice of her grandma on th phone, I couldn't help but to go up and see her grandma. She misses me! Ahaha. Like wow, im so touched. I like th fact that she kept on calling me "Denol". Ahaha! Fine, whatever mans. The family just seems to accept me and i appreciate it alot.
Imma go off now. Since there's nothing more to blog about. Gah, see you!
its just a matter of time ...
10:07 PM
Yepp. I'm back to S-C-H-O-O-L! I'm a REPEAT student and i think i shall cope with it. Its just another year and its deifnitely better than going to ITE. Be it you have the discipline and determination to work hard. I'm sure i would excel in my 'N' Levels this year if i put in enough effort. I can do it. Im determined.
Love will bring us back together ..
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Sry i haven't been updating for some time now. Been quite "busy" lately. I had work to do and also outings ehre and there. It just tires me out. Lyza is going off today. And we don't knw when she's coming back. I can't see you off Lyza, im sorry. May you have a safe trip and all the best in whatever you do. (:
There's still work tml. It probably should be from 9am - 5pm. There's a lot of packing to do. Guess there's no bball tml then.
available for lease.
Saturday, December 19, 2009
the bitter memories ...
There's no other choice is there. As much as i don't wanna leave, i have to. Its alright though. You guys are the bestest friends i could ever have. Thank you for all the times we had. I'll pray for your success in the future. May God bless you forever. I love you guys.
i've fallen and i can't get up.
Release of 'N' Levels Results.
Friday, December 18, 2009
English : FOUR
Mathematics : FIVE
Combined Humanities : FOUR
Science (Phy/Bio) : FIVE
Food & Nutrition : UNGRADED
Mother Tongue : THREE
Total Points : 21
These are my results. No point saying anything now, its Over. I actually broke down in tears at the hall earlier. I just couldn't stand it. Congratulations to Siti Nurlinda for getting 6 distinctions and 8 points. Congratulations to all of my classmates that made it to Sec 5. Strive further (:
Thank you Hudah for crying with me, for being with me all these years in Loyang. Thank you for understanding me. Thank you for being patient. Thank you for caring. Thank you for thinking for me.
Thank you Hamizah for tolerating with me, for guiding me. Thank you for your thoughts. Thank you for your support. Thank you for making me realise how much i'd miss you once im gone. Thank you for who i am now.
Thank you Momos for that bond. Thank you for that friendship. Thank you for that everlasting love you guys gave me. Thank you for holding me close. Thank you for educating me. Thank you for these 4 years here.
who said life was easy ...
